Name :

I Am Mouse

Gender :

Female

Age :

14

Country :

Australia

Registered :

2008-08-20

Last visit :

2010-02-09

Poems :

387

Rating :

4.9 / 170

Forum posts :

14

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Most of you probably already know
my life story... I didn't make it
but other people did. It's already
written half through and I'm only
fourteen years old.
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~~~ I've had to grow up years
before my age. I've been a full
time carer, a girlfriend, a
daughter, an enemy and once upon a
time, I was a best friend. Nobody
knows what tomorrow may bring and
that's why I'm still holding on.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~ Many people have asked me,
why I'm still here and why I'm
holding on to something that's not
holding on to me. The answer, I
have yet found but I know every
breath is another second that I
lived my
life. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~ I know what it's like
to wake up in the same place, at
the same time and wonder what is
keeping you here. I know what it's
like to be the odd one out and what
it's like to be the saddest person
in a room full of happy people and
to feel so lonely when your
surrounded by
hundreds. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~ If I had it my way;
I would never talk again, I'd just
face my head down and get on
through my misery and sorrow. But I
can't. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~ Along time ago, I woke
up from my fairytale dream and
started living this ordinary
nightmare and now it doesn't come
as some suprise when somebody hurts
me
again. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~ I was meant to be a
boy; it just didn't go to plan. I
can do things guys do. Shear sheep,
use the welder in the shed, make
sheep crates, drive manuals, read a
map, I race a commodore at
speedway... etc. I love getting my
hands dirty. I'm a tom boy and a
farmer on a 90, 000 acre
farm. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~ My boyfriend is the one
thing that keeps me happy. He has
been there through some pretty
tough times and has helped me when
I need it. I love you Alex.
xx............ I'm
bisexual. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~ When my dad drinks
and then he hits me, and says
things no father should say - I
stand with my own two feet and take
in everything that he says. I never
look away... He has tried to kill
me several times, and that's
another reason I haven't given
up.................. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~ My mum cheats on my
dad. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ My
uncle rapes me most nights and has
since I was only four. I suppose I
should be pretty experienced with
those things by now. Haha. I can
joke about it, because that's who I
am. It hurts but you'd never
understand. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~ I've been raped seven times by
different people and that's not
including my uncles abuse. Most of
them, are who I've known and do
know. Lets quit this
conversation. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I love reading
♥ snuggling with my
boyfriend when we're both asleep
♥ watching horror
movies and comedy ♥ my
mum is my best friend, and she
always will be ♥ my
brother has been like my dad, he
taught me all the things that I can
do ♥ I love writing and
being at home ♥
memories break my heart
♥ Paula Cole - I don't
want to wait. ♥ I love
thinking about the negatives but
I'd rather live the positives
♥ I'm strong,
physically and emotionally
♥ I suffer from
depression ♥ anxiety
♥ eating disorders
♥ low self confidence
♥ I'd rather be alive
and live than watch from above and
know that I've missed out.
♥ my cars are my
everything ♥ my dogs
are at times, the only things I
have ♥ my bed keeps me
warm, but it keeps secrets that we
both share ♥ I love you
alex, you are my heart.
♥ Much love,
mouse. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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~~~~~~~~~ There's something
about me that you will never
understand and I know that because
I have lived with myself for
fourteen years and I still don't
understand
myself. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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~~~~~~~~~~ Mouse. 10:31 pm.
♥ Tuesday the 11th of
February. 2010. â–€

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