DIY Frontal Lobotomy (HM)

Arrghhh - I scream in frustration,
Nothing ever goes right for me
It is always a fight you see?
The demons in my head-glue
I'm eternally screwed to,
feed on my
I n s a n I t y
reducing
Gravity,
Until
All
That's
left
Is
PAIN.

So

:

I bash my head hard against the wall
To make some sense of it all, but
the voices still mock me;
they boss me
& gloss
over
who
I
Am

:

I feel a tickle, a slight trickle
Running down my face
So I wipe it away.
& see red...
Have my
Demons
f l e d
from
my
head?

:

I scratch at the sore patch
Like a cat at a claw mat;
A frenzy of fingers
furiously
lingers
at the
more
ish
red
raw
bit.

:

There is a skin flap
I can feel that
attached
to my
Fore-
Cap

So

:

I pull and it tears some
there's pain, but
I reason, that
It is better
Opened;
like a
letter
with
a
:
Knife, a sharp serrated edge,
to Saw at the dead fed
Skin that dangles,
Mangled, like a
Lifeless
Lump
Of...
Dread.

:

I pull & pull, it doesn't snap
It only grows this flap of cap
U n r e e l i n g raw &
P e e l i n g more
Layers of
Feelings
From a
Life of
Mis-
hap

:

Am I going insane, or is my brain
oozing more of it
like sewerage
running down
a drain
each
grain:
a life
in
vain

:

As I look in the mirror at my
trailing mind, I feel less
the further I unwind...
Like spaghetti
& twine
My brain
Unties
From
mine
sickly
Grind

:

Finally
before
me a sloppy mess of
My memories, & pain, I guess?
Slithering, withering over my keyboard
From my sore...but now, I serenely, do not, care - l e s s...

michael
2015

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uy8gQtExMAs