Thanks for the comment. I don't really know what to say because it seems like you understand exactly what I was trying to say... And it scares me a little. To think with each word I speak I express everything I've felt. It means a lot to know that others can feel what I feel too. What you said about speaking louder than your voice, I've always believed that to be true but did not know how to put it into words. I always believed that I didn't have problems, that I AM the problem. It really helps to know that I can be more than the sum of well, that voice, that part of me. thanks again.