You have put a question : a question we all have to deal with.Thoughts are consistently flowing in our mind.The art to hold the positive and let go the negative is called the Art of Living.
You have portrayed an imagery how these thoughts are draining your energy.
You have also answered your question .You are honest in telling the reader ,writing poetry ,being creative is not helping you to get rid of those thoughts completely.
An excellent and true write.

I can relate to this..
I write to keep my demons away, and no matter how hard I try to..they always catch up with my present life....
Thanks so much for reminding me of what need to be done.