Welcomed Death

Wish I was too dead to cry,
These feelings have me on my knees,
Don't worry about me,
I don't need to be,

I keep slipping further,
Further into the abyss,
Run away now!
Before you get dragged into this,

Wish I was too dead to care,
If indeed I cared at all,
Leave my presence while you can,
While further down I fall,

My body is curled in a U shape,
My muscles feel like a melee,
I just need to find a way out,
I need to find a way,

Should the razor be my demise?
I really don't mind if I just fade away,
I have so many sins of the soul,
That I need to repay,

Here I lay leaking,
From attempting this dirty deed
A towel to contain the mess,
From all the blood that I bleed.

Wish I died instead of lived,
If I even lived at all,
I shall never be the king of my mind,
My kingdom shall always fall.