The Mask

Nothing is going right
I lost the will to fight
What's left of me is chained
Against the wall in pain

A girl crying on the inside
Yet hides it well from everyone
Simple but effective on my peers
No one can see my tears

A mask covers the pain
Sleeves cover the cuts and scars
No one can see the falling angel
Not from their angle

Barbed wire wraps around my slowly breaking heart
Trying to keep it together
But piece by piece fall through
Making the heart smaller than before

Everyone just sees a mask
The mask shows happiness
And no other emotion
They see only that and nothing else

Not even the pleading in my eyes
Wanting and longing for a shoulder to cry on
Yet never confessing my problems
Then hiding in a sea of make believe

Hiding in stories, shows, and daydreams
No one sees and no one cares
Leaving me alone to tend to my heart
And letting the darkness take control

Everyone sees the same thing!
Just a smile pasted on my face
When I'm truly screaming and crying
Just a slit of the throat will end the pain

Watch me slip further away
Slipping deeper into darkness
Yelling "IT'S ALREADY OVER NOW!"
Yet no one will hear me

I have nothing else to lose
So, I make a noose
Slip it over my head and around my neck.
And let myself hand from a branch

Letting people close to me weep
Watching me hang the swinging
With rain that looks like tears on my face
Cry and weep, but I'm not coming back.

I don't want to be stuck in the same place.
Not ever again!!