PiLLs

Taking pills
To erase the pain
Taking pills
To forget your name

Numb with no feeling
Laying in my bed
Telling our memories
To get out of my head

No emotions to show
No look on my face
This is what its come to
This is my escape

O start to feel my toes
So I pop another pill
Ive been doing this for a while
But not long enough to be ill

As the day goes by
I start to miss you more
So I keep taking the pills
Till I lay careless on the floor

I never thought Id be able
To be without you
And now Im popping pills
Just to get through

Its become quite hectic
And now its something I need
So I start to cut my wrists
And all I do is bleed

It doesnt hurt
Because the pills took away the pain
So I press a little deeper
Slitting open my vein

Now its off to the hospital
To stitch up my arm
3 days later I leave
And start therapy for self harm

7 stitches is all it took
To put me back together
But they didnt fix my heart
Itll be broken forever

So its back to the pills
That Im ashamed to use
But theres no other way
It feels like I have to

The pills make me feel better
Like Im finally okay
So give me more
To make it through today

Because I like being numb
And having no pain
Taking these pills
Just to forget your name.