Missing Him

As I sit here and wonder why, I always seem to cry

I look back to things in my past, that went away to damn fast

I wish he was still here, then maybe I wouldn't live in constant fear

I try so hard not to care but its more than I can bare

I wish that he would believe me when I say my love for him is sincere and true but I know that its something that he will never ever do.

I wish I could take all of these feelings back seeing that he is nothing more than a regret.

It's getting so hard to lie about what I would do if he died. Yet everyone really knows what I would do.

People tell me to give up on him, they just don't realize how hard it is after loving him for 2 years.

If I were to leave this earth, I hope that he would finally realize that he missed out on someone who loved him alot.

I don't think that he was ever even worth my time anyways.

Its a little to late for him wasting 2 years of my life, that I could of spent loving someone else, who might of actually cared unlike him.