Letting You IN

I do not know what to do, I do not know what to say
And these many voices in my head just will not go away
i have never felt this way about anyone before
but my past life just keeps coming back fro more and more
Everyday I love you more, but i am just to scared to let you in
And everyday I worry about losing you to my fear
I think about how my life would be without you, and how I would not survive with you not there
So I cover up my tears and keep straight eyes
But its getting hard to carry all the weight, from all the fear of the past and worry of the future
So I try to hide it all to keep you here with me
But the cover is coming off and my tears are starting to go free
i am finally going to admit that I am really scared
of what he is done to me and what eh might have planned
every time I see him, I always lose my breath
because I feel the pain that I always once felt
I know he has not done anything in a month but that sense of fear just gets stronger and stronger
So if you can not handle the life that I live, I will understand
for your not living in fear
My love for you will never fade away, and hopefully you will not forget what I am saying today
If you want to be with me, i am gonna warn you now
My life can never be good with him hanging around
So if you love me the way you say you do, I believe you will be with me all the way through
i have never done this before and i am hoping I do not regret it
but this feeling in my heart is really hard to shed
i am gonna let you have the key to my heart, but only on one condition
You promise me not to treat me anywhere close to how he did before
Then you have my heart for all the months and years to come
So please do not break it, because I only have one chance to LOVE!!