I Feel A Little Distant From You.

[[Note: This is more of a story than a poem, so please remember that while you read this!]]

I'm riding home on the bus,
The bumpy ride is just like any day.
I've got my iPOD grasped in my hand,
Listening along to my favorite songs,
And drowning out the screams of kids in the seats ahead.
The swift breeze swipes my hair right across my face,
But I just don't care.

Suddenly, I drift off into my own world.
I'm thinking of you, like I always have.
Then, I begin to realize something.
Everything just starts making sense to me all at once.

Instantly, I know why I haven't been able to talk to you.
Which is why I can't have the conversation I'd always wanted to have with you.
I sift through all the reasons in my head,
and one makes the most sense out of any of them.
I'm too distant from you.

I've always had that feeling of distance between us,
and that's why I can't talk to you.
I've always thought that if I talked to you,
You wouldn't truely understand what I was saying,
And where I am coming from.
My words would be just sweet nothings in your ear.

I've always thought of you as a sweet and genuine guy,
And I know one thing for sure, I will always love that about you.
Maybe you would take my words into consideration,
But I just don't know right now whether or not you would.

The next song comes on,
But I can't really hear it.
I'm not really listening to what the song is,
I'm just thinking of you.

The kids are still screaming in the background,
I'm getting more frustrated,
I just want everything to be quiet,
But it's not.

The song finally ends,
and I'm looking through the play lists.
I find the song "Love Is a Beautiful Thing."
This song takes me to a different place,
It makes me realize how wonderful love can be.
How two people can fall in love for each other,
and how sweet and beautiful things turn out to be.
Then I realize, that could be me and him.

The song continues to play,
I have to get off the bus now.
At least now I've got an idea of why I've felt this way about you,
Why I haven't been able to speak to you.

Although I feel distant from you,
I want to become closer and get to know you better than I do now.
It's been something I've always wanted us to be,
And I've never known how to change it.
Now that I have the boost to become closer,
I want to take that chance,
Because, I don't think I could go wrong.