In time my heart will heal from this pain you gave

When we started it was February tenth
now its January 27th and its over again
just drama we cant handle right now
you've hurt me with this decision you put down
but I'm still here for you
and i always will be ill always care for you
i wish i couldn't feel
so my heart could stop breaking
i wish this wasn't real
so my heart i could stop staking
i think I'm blind cause i couldn't see
and I'm so hardheaded cause now i cant redeem
but those three words i kept saying
they meant alot, and Ive been praying
to make myself understand to love myself
cause you showed me without that it'll be hell
you opened up my eyes
at the same time held me through my cries.
and even so i wonder why
before i kept wishing to die
i was waisting time, precious time
it was so wrong and its been treated as a crime
and wow you've made me realize
that even looking through my eyes
i still couldn't see everything
cause i wasn't thinking about your ex-king
i completely ignored my feelings.
and now that you've been revealing
how i really am inside
i cant believe i never seen my light
i put my feelings aside for you
to try to have you love me more too
but its only made things worse
its like i have a curse
but i thank you so much
for letting go of your grudge
for opening my eyes
for holding me throughout my cries
for making me feel so alive
for not letting me take a dive
for not letting me die
and for not holding back a lie
and through all this
though out all these things
your still here helping me
so i can be the best i can be
and i know i wasn't appreciating you
but now your gone and I'm really missing you
but friends is all we will be
till that one day where i can take control of me
thanks for making me see
thanks for not letting me flee
if you decide to move on
i still wont regret going head on
to this problem that kills me
cause I'm only doing this to help me be
with someone i love and to be happy
to actually be proud to be a pappy
i love you and that means alot
but if its an impossible plot
i understand so don't worry
i will still be happy when i get buried
cause the happiness inside of me will grow
cause i know your gonna help it restore
i will help you and give you honest advice
so don't worry i wont lie for my cries
besides i will never be able to disguise
the pain thats deep within my eyes
at lest not to you
just know this pain grew
but my happiness somehow too
cause your still here boo
and i know you always will be
as a couple, as friends, or however were seen
and thats what makes you a great friend...

my heart will always belong to you...
always and forever is real my love, i just cant believe its truly over.