Confusion

A soul my love will never free
Trapped somewhere inside of me
Feeling numb, I can't succumb
Tell me what will come to be

If I don't find what I need
If my mind won't cease to bleed
Will I be dead, demons fed
God's will played out as He decreed

Too much time, too much thought
I won't give up the life I sought
Some time to mourn and be reborn
Thanking pain for lessons taught