Cutting

I tried killing myself and i was not strong enough to do it
Then the thoughts went away
and i was happy then i met you
i was really happy and glad to be alive
then the fighting happened
the thoughts came back
drinking you away didn't help
pills didn't help me
then i found something that helped alot
cutting...
the feeling i get from the blade sliding over my skin made me feel better
it didn't matter where i did it no one cared
then the night i took a vike and cut till i felt something
i lost alot of blood that night but you didn't care
Then when i planned my death out you started to care
but then i got hit with cancer and stop caring about anything
so thats my story