Wishing breaks the heart

A lost soul once said to me
"Don't wish
Don't start
Wishing only breaks the heart."
I never understood
I never wanted to
until the moment i wished...
i was wishing for you
my heart let out a mournful cry
and i swear,
thats the day my heart began to die

I accepted the fact
That i would never find anyone
I was ready to go through life alone
and my life had barely begun

I finally felt i could handle it
i was never anyones type
and they were never right for me
i had finally reached a sad peace of mind

then you came along
and turned my life
inside out
upside down
your making me spin
all around

I can no longer see
you've stolen my glance
every time i try to see
i see you smile

I can no longer breathe
You've stopped the air i need
because every time i hold my breath
it's because your too close to me

I can no longer hear
you've stricken me deaf
every time i try to listen
i can only hear your voice

i can no longer speak
you've stolen the words from my lips
because every time i try
it's only you that comes to mind

you've stricken me
deaf
dumb
blind
and i can't find a reason
i can barely find a rhyme

And worst of all
this strange feeling i have for you
doesn't and won't ever mean a thing to any one but me
because your to far away
and i can't scream your name that loud
And even if i could
you would never hear me
above the crowd

A lost soul once said to me
"Don't wish
Don't start
Wishing will only break your heart"
I finally understand
now that i wanted to
i understood the moment...
the moment i wished for you.
My heart has screamed it's last sepulchral cry
and on my heart i swear
my heart has already died...