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I was really hoping for one chance
Maybe this time things could've been different
But every time happiness comes into reach
It's like the depression takes its leap

I want to be happy for once in this lifetime
And I thought that was what I was getting
But in truth that is not what happened
Because as always it was ripped away from me

Maybe its time to pay for my past mistakes
A life I screwed up to long ago
Maybe this is where I have to pay
And I just have to live this way

But it's funny
Because he wanted to give me it all
And I knew that I couldn't be the one
To catch him if he were to fall

So I shall step away
And show the hurt I hide everyday
I can't believe life could be this way
But it is

So tonight I will make the pain show
And I'll cry in a new way
I shall drift off to sleep
With my painting still drying

Because I'll paint you all a picture
And I'll paint it with a twist
This razor will be my pen
And the paper, my wrist

And if I paint it right
A fountain of red shall appear
To wipe away my thoughts
And chase away my fears.