The tide

As i stood on the shore
with the tide flowing in
and the sea is surrounding me
while I'm broken within

and my heart stands on edge
as I'm biting my lip
as I'm watching the waves
turning white at the tips

with the breeze in my face
under the moonlit night
with not a soul around
and not a single fright

as i walk into the water
remembering this
the sound of his voice
his laugh, his kiss

the beat of his heart
his soul his bliss
everything we had
everything but this

as i fall into the path
of fail and neglect
as I'm bedridden
with stress and regret

with the loss
of my ex lover
and the feeling
for nobody other

but heavens not a place
that you go when you die
its that moment in life
where you actually feel alive

and i shall live for that moment
and the moment is near
as I'm feeling the waves
captivating all of my fear

i break for the moment
my heart is feeling clear
and I'm following the water
followed by a single tear

[i may add on later]