Here again, but never alive

You gave your life to save mine,
but how can i repay you?
i never had a chance,
your before i came to do so

thank you for all you've done,
all you did to save me
i can never thank you well enough,
though your death forever scares me

i miss you old friend
forever and a day
i miss you always, never look away
here is where i am today

4 years have gone by
and not one with you by my side again
I'm sorry i let you go
losing your own life to give me the chance to live again

an old friend once said to me
your pains will always heal
that never got a chance to carry through
because that blade killed before it sealed

your life was never a waste of time
revenge is at my door
i stand there everyday
thinking of a way to see you once more

so i say my goodbyes and sorrows and fears
and wish them all away
and i walk to the distant door
to be there with my friend again