Tired

My body is tired, but my fears keep me awake
I try to make it through the night just for my own sake
What the word has become tires me.
The lying, cheating and pain is what I see

Although I still feel as if I'm the one at fault
My thoughts even make me feel like I'm in a one-person cult

Now the nights start feeling longer
And it seems everyday I get weaker rather than stronger
I know I must stand tall,
But every time I try, I stumble and fall

You see I take their guilt
And feel it as my own
Painfully filling me...it hurts to the bone
But I don't blame them, they don't even know
I wouldn't even begin to think of them as that low

But I like taking their pain,
Because I hope they won't feel it too
So they won't be left with the memories
That stick like super glue

Although I don't know how much more I can take
Will someone save me before I completely break?
Oh wait that's right, no one can because I'm too withdrawn
I guess the only way I'll make it through this world
is when I'm completely gone