Prefer

Life is coming at me fast
A bit too fast to take
I pray to the lord for guidance
Yet I still feel im making mistakes

I fear my future
And envy my youth
No longer am I a little girl
Im slowly learning the harsh truths

No more lending hands
I am now on my own
In this big scary world
unfortunately grown

Making decisions
Ones that will affect my future
I just wish I wasnt so confused
And I could be more assured

I know we all go through it
The path of adult hood
But I shouldnt have so much fear
For what isnt understood

I see the strengths
It takes to make it
I just dont feel im strong enough
For the commit

This poem started off about life
And now it leads into death
Along with all my others
Taking my last breath

I fear for what is to come
And dont want it to arrive
I wish for no tomorrows
And the chance to revive

I just cant bring it upon myself
For more failures to occur
Not waking up in the morning
Is something I would prefer