Nightmares

Empty heart surrounded by ice,
frozen to ease the pain,
trying not to fall asleep
to keep the dreams at bay,
the nightmares in the night.

Visions of what the future might be,
my worst fears becoming reality,
waking up wanting to scream
filled with such horrible fear,
trying to tell myself it's just a dream.

Getting a call that stops my world,
holding you close as you let go,
reliving my fears every night,
seeing them every time I close my eyes,
I do know that fear doesn't help at all.

Starting to cry in the middle of a show
because all I could see was you,
like a dark cloud hanging over my head
trying to pretend nothings wrong
and not tell you how scared I am.

Scared of running out of time,
scared of the thought of having to let go,
it's a fear that I live with everyday
but I refuse to accept it'll happen,
this is nothing but a nightmare.

Empty heart surrounded by ice,
frozen to ease the pain,
trying not to fall asleep
to keep the dreams at bay,
the nightmares in the night.

Feeling hollow inside my heart
with nothing but blank numbness,
trying to block out the images
that are swirling in my head
as I pray for a dreamless night.