I Am Not One

by Countess of Monte Cristo   Oct 6, 2009


You know i love you.
But it's time for me to step on my heart.
I have lost many people in this life.
And I've become a master at this art.

You see, you were everything to me.
I even put your interest before mine.
God knows what i went through for your sake.
When i kept telling you i was perfectly fine.

I loved you more than anything
Don't get me wrong i really still do.
But reality is so different from what i dreamed you'd be.
I finally saw the other part of you.

I'm afraid i cannot throw all of my dreams.
For a man who wants me as a slave.
I am not one to give in to love's prison.
Even though it is love that i badly crave.

But you do know i love you.
That is why i have to set you free.
You're a good man and i know it.
But you just have to let me be.

It is time for me to step on my heart.
Because following it always led to pain.
I'll step on my heart even though i badly miss your love.
Because I am not one to be bound by its chains.

*True story. In the end, it is better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone, no matter how much you love them.

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  • 14 years ago

    by Em

    Yes, you said it well. Being unhappy alone is alot easier than being unhappy with somebody else because atleast alone we can find somebody to be truly happy with. 5/5, Em

  • 14 years ago

    by Nic39uy

    Ohh wow really love the poem. made me think back when i was stuck in this situation and had to let it all go.

    "you know i love you
    but it's time for me to step on my heart
    i have lost many people in this life
    and i've become a master at this art"

    despite the fact we love that person, we have to let go all ties. it pains us but it a must. it cruel but that's the grim reality of life. become a master at this art, must of been through a lot of heartbreaks to become a master at this, truly painful.

    "you see, you were everything to me
    i even put your interest before mine
    god knows what i went through for your sake
    when i kept telling you i was perfectly fine"

    when you love someone you out them before yourself, totally true, despite the fact only god know is sad, they need to understand what you're doing for them and need to appreciate all that you've done for them

    "i loved you more than anything
    don't get me wrong i really still do
    but reality is so different from what i've dreamed you'd be
    i finally saw the other part of you"

    to finally see their true nature, and knowing they don't really love you is truly a pain which one can't describe. but we try to justify that and prove our love hoping they love you.

    "i'm afraid i cannot throw all of my dreams
    for a man who wants me as a slave
    i am not one to give in to love's prison
    even though it is love that i badly crave"

    love isn't love if that persons want to keep you locked up and only to himself. love is something we need to share with others and not to be kept to one person. it creates tons of complications and distrust if your love isn't shared with others.

    "but you do know i love you
    that is why i have to set you free
    you are a good man and i know it
    but you just have to let me be"

    it's painful but if you really do love that person you gotta let them go and move on with life. you have to accept it and be happy that you once had something special and part ways and hope for the best.

    "it is time for me to step on my heart
    because following it always led to pain
    i'll step on my heart even though i badly miss your love
    because i am not one to be bound by it's chain"

    it seems love always led to pain, it's like a test that god has put us through but despite all the hurt, this will lead us to find a perfect soul mate. we endure all this so once we find that person we will know what to do right. it's hard to let go a person we love so much, but they want to bound your heart to chains then you gotta get free. cuz you give your heart to another but it doesn't mean they need to bound it to chains.

    well this is my first time i did an analytic on a poem. just had to cuz i could relate so much to it. i learned a lot from it, keep it up 5/5

  • 14 years ago

    by Courageous Dreamer

    The last two lines at the bottom really summed up the message of your poem.

    "In the end, it is better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone, no matter how much you love them."
    ^This is so very true and something everyone should read. You are absolutely right.

    This is really well done and full of wisdom.

  • 14 years ago

    by Dreamofolwin

    A sad... but an honest, heartfelt write. You did well writing this Walah. Very well done. Youre a brave ... honest girl! ... and you will find the right one out there waiting for you! :) Excellent piece.

  • 14 years ago

    by Cindy

    Walah
    It is hard to let go of what you love. But if that love brings you pain then you are doing the right thing.
    Excellent job!
    Love Cindy

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