Not what I'm supposed to do

His arms are holding me
I'm listening to his heartbeat
He tilts up my chin
Brings his face in
And gives me the sweetest kiss
Its every girls bliss

I close my eyes
Let out a sigh
And ignore the twinge of pain
I force a smile
And all the while
I'm wishing I could change

Because with him
It doesn't feel like I know if should
It hurts more then I thought it would
And I walk down memory lane with you
Much more often than I'm supposed to
And it hurts babe, like you wouldn't believe
Cause I don't feel when he kisses me
And I'm craving for this to be you
And that's not what I'm supposed to do

Theres some texts that I can't erase
Some conversations I'll always save
I'll look into his eyes
And I'll see your face
I won't kiss him in your basement
I can't open up to him
When he touches my face
I imagine your hands

And you stroked my face
You kissed me cheek
Your breath lingered on my neck
And I couldn't speak

But with him
It doesn't feel like I know if should
It hurts more then I thought it would
And I walk down memory lane with you
Much more often than I'm supposed to
And it hurts babe, like you wouldn't believe
Cause I don't feel when he kisses me
And I'm craving for this to be you
And that's not what I'm supposed to do

And I know that you're not reachable
I know the feelings not mutual
I know you never think of me
And I know that you don't want to see

How far I've fallen into you
The things I would be willing to do
To just have that feeling one more time
Just for a moment for you to be mine

Cause this doesn't feel like I know if should
It hurts more then I thought it would
And I walk down memory lane with you
Much more often than I'm supposed to
And it hurts babe, like you wouldn't believe
Cause I don't feel like you when you kissed me
And I'm craving for this to be you
And that's not what I'm supposed to do

It's that feeling, the twist in your stomach
The flutter in your chest
It can make you forget
And you lose all concentration
And your body it just gives
And you melt into that moment
And that's this girls bliss

And I'm sorry for these thoughts
And the way this heart feels
I'm sorry I had to say goodbye
Because with him it wasn't real

It just didn't feel like you showed me it should
And that hurt much more than I thought it would
And I'd be walking down that lane with you
But when I'd come back, he'd be there too
And I hurt him babe, like you wouldn't believe
But I'd wish it were your lips when he kissed me
I find myself crying every night for you
Wishing that you'd love me too
And that's definitely not what I'm supposed to do