Complicated&stupid

I prayed for an angel, but why does that angel have to be you?
I hope my words don't offend you but it`s just so hard to chose
Between the people you love and the person your willing to do anything for.
Look where fate took me it held me by the hand and walked me into another closed door, I thought I was ready I thought i was prepared when did all the walls i built fall apart at the end. With every new brick i lay it breaks harder than the last with every tear I cry a little hope dies inside.
You turned the ash in my heart back into flaming fire
The hate in my soul back into love
You put hope back into my eyes wiped away my frown and drew a smile instead. How can I walk away then again how can I stay. I am scared of (then) more than I am of (now), I am scared of (tomorrow) more than I am of (today), I am scared of losing (them) more than I am of losing (you). Yet again why does it hurt so much to think that chances are I might never get the chance to have you.
Can you really be strong enough to go through the fire when so much change is required? Is it worth the burn? The pain? The tears? Or do you just turn a blind eye to it take the easy way out and go walk away pretend non of this ever happened. Can you really trust what people tell you or do you follow what will at the end of the day make you happy?. Do you just forget everything you ever believed in every promise you`ve made to yourself. Break every rule and leave the whole world behind and take his hand walk away from all this craziness, heartache, fakeness and live a sane happy life.
Or do you just stay where you are now live in black & white emotionless, heartless, cold and scared? It`s not always rainbows and butterflies indeed, but what if that`s possible to change. Do you just let the chance slip by? Or do you fight hard to prove it otherwise?