This has made me tear up. I have lost my Gram quite some time ago and what you have written has nailed it. A beautifully written piece with emotion and pain.
It is hard losing those you love and I am sorry for your loss. You have written beautifully and I hope you keep writing.
At the beginning, I though it was a typical break-up poem. Then, I felt bad about thinking that after learning that the loved one died. Now, I feel even worse knowing it was your grandmother! This poem speaks the words that people want to say when someone dear passes, but can't out of excessive sadness. Very sad, but in a beautiful way.
This is a very sad write and it pulled on my heartstrings I will admit. I had a slight problem with the number of "I"s you used...most of which are unnecessary so perhaps a little editing would help make it read even better.
I loved this, I mean it made me feel sad. Obviously grief over death is never easy, and this truly brought a tear to my eye.. made me think of my Grandfather's death last year..
But the fact that it brought a tear to my eye is why I loved it. I felt Your emotions all through this, and I felt connected to You.
First and Second Stanza's flow so well
"Life without you
seems so non existent.
The memories we shared
are so distant.
I want to turn back time
but know that I'm not able,
I'm tragically unstable."
When You lose someone You are very close too, it strange how it's like they are fading away quickly.. and yet still You are stuck feeling like they cant really be gone. So contradicting that You practically shut down just to hold on to the fading memory of them. The color of that sweater that one day, or the sound of their laughed..
I love that in the Third Stanza You expressed that You couldn't function, and You couldn't do things You enjoyed anymore.. but then in the Seventh Stanza when you start to return to normalcy You expressed that You knew the blame not lye with Nan. I could see the acceptance actually forming between these two stanzas.
Ugh; I could go on.
You did a really great Job and I enjoyed that this poem was expressed like an actual fair well letter to Nan.