A life thats mine

My heart used to be so full
Of trust and honesty
I had such an opinion
On everything you see

A black haze fills my mind
And memories start to fade
My life seems to be empty now
Cut by a sharpend blade

Where is this going?
And what else can I do
I've lost the will to try
There're things i cant undo

God please give me strength
To wait out this terrible time
Help me to my feet again
And to a life thats really mine