BeccaSTAR : Cloud of smoke

I can't see through this cloud of smoke
It feels like I'm lost forever

No hope

I don't understand why I feel this way
Living this life, This daily charade

I'm hopelessly here
My thought alone

I love you so much
My brain's in overload

Everything haywire
You can't understand

Why I need you here
It's my life's plan

Without you I'm nothing more
Than an empty body

Without a soul

I hope one day you'll open your eyes
Until then

I'll wait inside

This cloud of smoke
Where I've always been

How much longer till you clue in ?