How I feel!...

I watch the clock turn to a new time

As I make this day today mine

The sun shines through the window on a brand new day

Knowing the stress will get in my way

The alarm on my phone goes off next to me

I pick up the phone to see no one will leave me be

20 message in my in box from the ones that say they care

Opening them is what I dare

The first one is from her, as I look down at my wrist

She begged me not but I threw the phone to ball up my fist

I felt the punch like a stack of bricks to my face

Gosh, I wanna be loved in this place

My family has fallen apart from its seams

And all I know is I cant take this scene

Him happy with my little girl

And me made at the world

The second one is from him, the one that doesn't care

I scream in the phone this isn't Fair

I hear nothing on the other line

but I know with this he is totally fine

He gets the world on his side

And I am the one left to hide

Hide how I feel about the situation of this

I cry myself to sleep knowing that he has won

Oh my god what have I done...