Reminding myself to breathe,
I hold back the tears and fight them,
fight this eroding pain
that's eating me up inside
as I sit here all alone.
Thinking "my heart can't take this"
as another holiday comes and goes
and I'm still here, not there,
hearing the reasons you give
but really not caring right now.
Wishing I could give anything,
do anything it took,
just to be with you,
standing there holding your hand
as you take those slow steps.
Hating this distance so much,
I thought it would be easier than this,
being closer would ease the pain,
but being so much closer
hasn't eased it at all....
So close and yet unable
to reach across this distance
and touch the one dream I hold onto,
hurts more then the thousands did,
I wish I could change your mind.
Standing and watching the moon,
knowing that it's right above you too,
I wish it could carry me
like it does my dreams,
I'd have it carry me to you.
This heartache hurts so bad
but I swear I won't give up,
I'll stand and fight for us
because I love you enough
but this pain sure hurts a lot.
