Im still the one standing

With everything i have done for you,
all the tears we cried together,
the millions of friendship bracelets we made for one other.

abruptly you changed face,
and i never saw it coming.

you threw everything in my face,
turned my emotions inside out,
throwing my trust into the fire for everyone to see burn.

You took my biggest weakness and threw it in my face,
turning into the bullies that we for years tried to ignore.

'Go cut your self, it will solve everything. All the feelings will dissolve,
and you'll go numb, just like what you used to do, The only thing you have
ever known.'

I don't need to mutilate my self to go numb,
you did that on your own for me,
with the knife you have snuggling anchored into my back.

I have changed,
I'm no longer the girl who needs to resort in torturing herself in order to feel alive,
no longer do i need to rip a hole in my arm to deal with emotions and stress.

I found confidence in myself to live,
I learned how to stand on my own two legs.

for that you shunned me,
You cant deal with the fact that I'm living out of the comforts zones we set up,
I'm taking the risks i have always done,
though the differences this time is I'm not alone and I'm successful.

Your jealous that i have always had the boys,
you never took the time to look at yourself in the mirror,
showing your true self,
bringing the beauty u have out,
instead you hid all your shine,
and you glared as I glistened.

Just remember,
as you try to walk yourself through a false life,
following in the foot steps to a dead end, as always,
I'm never gonna be there again,
No longer will i be the pillow you land on when the world comes crashing down,
by no means will i let you bring me down again.

instead I'm gonna reach out my hand,
and grab his hand in marriage,
start finally living a life without a little voice on my shoulder,
dragging me down into the darkness.

I'm happier with out you in my life.
Remember I'm still the one standing!