I Can Never Rest

Sometimes I just wanna give up or at least take a break
Thats when I close my eyes and see my grandmothers face

Sometimes I just wanna give in or at least take a sip
Thats when I close my eyes and see my little brothers face

Sometimes I just wanna sleep or at least take a nap
Thats when I close my eyes and see my mothers face

A drunk men's words are a sober men's thoughts
That night my uncle told me to battle
Because we are always in a battle
Not physical but mental
Some spend a whole lifetime trying to escape these bars
Am I creating my own path or is my destiny determined by the stars
When you are on the other side of the shore everything will be clear
Right now my dreams keep me up at night
As I start dose off I'm waken up by the fright
Because amounting to nothing is my greatest fear
Having people bank on you while you are still in the gutter
For their bread and butter
Should I feel aggrieved because they expect so much from me
Or get inspiration from the potential they see in me
It's 2am let me take another dose of caffeine