If you really knew me.......

If you really knew me you would see me cry.
you would see that i am hurting so bad and do not know how to deal with it.

If you really knew me you would see I so badly want someone to help me and now that I need help.
and I know I need help but don't know how to get it.

If you really knew me you would know I spend my days wondering how I can change.

If you really knew me you would know I desperate I am for some one to hold me in their arms.
and truly want someone to love me.

It is hard for me to know whether I need help more or want love?