Good work. Never give up on hope and you can never be in too deep for God to help he loves you so much and all you have to do is call out to Him and he will hear you.

I have to agree with The Poetess, the poem never took off for me, it felt self absorbed which can be the intention but this did not flow quite the way the title suggests. Pain never came trhough because of the fillers, it felt more of a frustration than pain.

There is some creative writing there too which would be better highlighted with less filler words, I think it has potential too show your talent with a revise.

Good work getting the feelings onto the page, a little tweaking and you will have a genuine article of grief on your hands.