Let me be weak

Close my eyes, block out the world,
let all my pretenses fall away,
the masks and shields I wear,
to stand here nakedly myself,
defenselessly just myself.

Look deeply into the mirror
and see the shadows and ghosts
welling up in my eyes
as I finally stop pretending,
I'm not really this strong.

My fears and pain and emptiness
spills down my face wetly
as I say I can't take anymore,
just let me lay here a while
before I have to pick myself back up.

Try so hard to be strong,
to keep hold of the smile and laughter,
the hope and dreams within me
but sometimes it's just to much
for me to take anymore.

Filled with such overwhelming fear
of the future and my present,
all the possibilities that you say won't happen
that fill constantly my mind,
nightmares even when I'm awake.

Deep residing loneliness
that won't loosen it's grip on me,
I'm scared of being alone.

Just let me lay here for a while,
let me cry for a while tonight,
before I crawl back to my feet
and face another day,
I just want to be weak tonight.