Edge (revisted)

Here I stand looking over the edge
I have grown tired of looking back
I remember everything from back then
There was a certain knowledge I lacked

Walking backward to stop my falling
Razors edge is a dangerous way of life
Time to turn around and face the darkness
Lemme bare these fangs proving my strife

Fists clenched Looking for forgiveness
Only way I can even comprehend a win
Here I am face to face with the demon of the past
Allow me these metaphoric lyrics like another sin

To be forgiven I must somehow forgive
Forgive their laughter and forgive the pain
A misunderstanding of understanding I guess
Finding another way to get rid of the innocent blame

You once said my dear I was you hero
I thank god every day for girls as they lie
But now I must be how I like to act
To save myself without you before I die

Standing to close to the very edge
I must face the monster stabbing me in the back
No more running forward hiding from the dark
tonight I will face the knife’s carbon black

My Demos had me for so many years at their mouth
Muttering a thousand curses deep on my soul
My grandmother died giving me a different muse
Something a little closer to a more holy goal

Breathe in and out now grabbing these balls
Lemme show you the depth of my heart
You think your taking away all these anchors
But there was a goodbye as they departed

Someday they will see me again still being tall
I refuse to be call anything less of a normal man
So come here demons stab me with your carbon black
Never again will you tell me how you understand

Standing tall finding my footing in the ground
No more fear, and no more hatred is left in my chest
Come on now the devil of my heart I am no longer scared
Face to face with the carbon black we will figure out the rest