Call me Selfish

Call me selfish
If you like
Depression is taking over this never ending night
Dark room, dark thinking
Gasping for air, wishing my eyes would stop blinking
I want it all to end once and for all
Ive fallen to the ground to many times, I can no longer crawl
My faith in everything is lost
The love of my family is the cost
Putting them before me
I cant live without them in reality
I listened to that same song over and over again
It replays itself in my head
All I wanted to do was help them get away
But their fear took over and they chose to stay
I cant, not any more
I came in this life alone and now its my time to go
Forgive me for any misery or pain Ive put you through
I hope one day you can understand my reason too..