Just me being me!

How do you explain the torture and pain,
of a memory you live each day,

Do you suffer in quiet, let your head run with riot
or face up to it come what may,

Would you run away and hide, keep it all locked inside
or do you let the barriers lay

Show them life does go on and for them you’ll be strong,
while your hands clench tight and you pray

That you will feel what its like to have real love insight,
your not afraid to hurt anymore...

That they will always be true and it’s them loving you,
and they want you more and more,

But reality is with a cold hearted twist,
that fate did make you feel dismissed

Like you can never be you and the pain you go through
all because self esteem is missed

so i cannot explain the torture and pain
of a Feeling i have everyday

i can hope and can pray that we will make it one day,
And the life i deserve is with you,