Blame The Alcohol.

Sitting here with a bottle in my hand, wondering when this pain I feel will ever come to an end.

These thoughts of you are crowding my mind, and theirs voices telling me of how I wrong I was for leaving you behind.

I can't stop the voices for their overpowering my brain, telling me all I did wrong, now I feel such ashame.

I left the most important person behind in my life and now he's probably gone forever, im taking drink after drink trying to pull myself together.

Drinking so much Im starting to feel numb, tameing the demon that everyone says ive become.

Bottle after bottle knowing it could be my last, I ignore my feelings and my heart starts beating fast.

Starring at all the broken bottles lying there on the floor, knowing thats not all of the alcohol I have I stumble to get more.

Wishing he would take me back and forget the hell that we've been through, I shed a tear here and there for all I think about is you.

I miss the things we do together for your the one I adore, you'd think after all this id leave but yet I keep running back for more.

How you used to hold me, your hugs I dearly miss, and how you wanted to always see me, for being around you I can't resist.

And how you told me you loved me when I would least expect it, or how you used to say goodnight before you went to bed, I dream these things will happen again but im starting to give up and wish I was dead.

Alcohol running through my viens I feel as if im about to faint, I fall landing on a peice of glass, on the cold floor I use my blood and a suicide note I start to paint.

It says, "im sorry I hurt you like I did but I guess this is how it has to be, how much I loved you now you'll never see. Goodbye forever... ill miss you baby."