Vault of Ash

Tell me please what it means to you
What this melancholy can control
It feels like I am transfixed
I have turned the darkest shade of grey

The light fades from my eyes
A golden iris illuminates my dead mind
Shut me out, shun me please
I want to be impervious to this

But it seems the bittersweet taste
Will not let go of my darkened self
Your presence is engraved
In a tomb of feathers

Would you share my sorrow?
I am only human
My grief is something I cannot compare
The spectrum has not been built that far

I have gotten over jealously the worst way
I have chained it up
It is locked away in a vault of ash
Its tomb for eternity

What if I am wrong?
Angels, to me, only torment
Are they really trying to help?
Make my heart whole again?

My space is littered with the leaves of wings
Moreover I have seen no God
I feel poisoned knowing that sun
Is nothing but a star I cannot reach

A trench in my chest is not the right statement
A catacomb is better said
Memories stored and old
I am not even alive

I am so cold