Turning Around

Sometimes I hate my pessimism

it results in hesitation

and I get caught in a circle

a vicious cycle

I take a breath and concentrate

make sure my emotions don't instigate

a decision I might regret

or suffer the sting of another bet.

Why do my words pause with hesitation?

is it my overactive imagination?

that constant fear of the future

and what will happen to me

i'm uncomfortable having so much emotion

and i don't know where i got that notion

why can't it be more simple

just like stars twinkle.

Sometimes i feel so inundated

is it really that complicated

of course it isn't

but I've created a monster in my mind

happiness is all that matters

but somehow it is not easy to find.

So where do all these thoughts leave me

I'm not sure but in the end I wanna be happy

happy to be the one

even if I have no one

I hope my doubts don't complicate things

nor go overboard and start to cling

but everything will be fine

because I can feel and wanna shine.