My Guardian Angel

Days after your death,
A calming presence overcomes me,
no emotion left in me,
barely any tears shed,
i feel like I'm alone in this world,
with nobody to turn too.

I feel a hand on my shoulder,
the exact way you used to do it,
a spiritual presence,
you came to me to let me know I'll be okay,
to know you're still there,
watching over me as my guardian angel.

Alone in the room,
i know you're right there with me,
calming down my heartbeat,
putting beautiful images in my mind,
tears run down my face for the first time,
as i realize you're really gone,
no longer can i be in your arms.

A few days after your death,
you came to me,
reminding me you're not alone,
tears flow out my eyes like never before,
I'm breaking down,
calling out "Mom, i need you why did you have to go."

A calming presence overcomes me,
your way of letting me know I'm here,
you can't see me,
but you can feel me in your heart & soul,
that I'm not alone.

The tears continue to fall,
i curl up in a ball,
knees to my chest,
realizing my mom... my best friend,
is no longer here,
I cry out one last time,
"Mom, i need you why did you have to go."