My loving Angel

I go back to this day a lot,
When they took you,
My loving Angel..

They drugged mommy,
Told me it would relieve the pain,
Maybe make things a little easier for me..

"Deanna please come up now",
They called down to me..

I took step by step as my heart slowly began to break..

The darkness surrounded me,
tears started to fall,
And just when i saw that single light,
I heard the machine..

It was so loud so mind hurting,
Knowing that it was about to be final,
I said out-loud..

"No please don't take my baby",
The pain, the misery..
Its was over..

You were gone and I no longer carried you as my own..

Daddy was there,
He kissed me good-bye..
Having no time to talk,
He had many tears in his eyes..

Although i didn't think he'd have the weakness to cry, he held me for a moment before walking away broken inside..

If i could go back and retake that path just to bring you back i would of, but life doesn't work like that..

From time to time, i find myself rocking, imagining you here with me..

The diapers, the bottles, and the baby-crys we passed up..

Why??

I loved you in a matter of time..
Did you feel my touch rubbing against you, night and day??
We didn't have that long together, like we should have..

I remember saying to you,
Your life will be great..

Mommy lied,
Oh how I'm so sorry!
You remain in my heart,
Daddy's to I'm sure of it..

I hope you forgive me for what i have,
Remember i had no control..

Until we meet again,
I carry u in my dreams..

So sleep well my angel,
save my spot for me,
for one day ill be joining you,
and we'll be together again.
Promise!

My loving Angel..

Oh how i promise!