I wish I could just be a little kid again. So when life gets tough you can just play pretend.
I wanna go back to when Santa did exist. When daddy was the only guy i ever kissed.
When Disney World was the best place to be and no one could make me cry.
When i could find entertainment in the tiniest things
And every time i was sad or had a bad day I could just run to mommy and shed make it better
I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter. When everyone always lives happily ever after.
When I cry at night, the only thing I can think to myself is...how can I seem so perfectly fine in the morning. Why do I smile like nothing is wrong? And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay? That every bone, muscle fiber of my being is screaming out in pain and sorrow
I don't know what I want in life. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside and one day, there won't be any more of me left. Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheeks I ran away and hid from it.n the depths of silence where only my thoughts played. I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more.
Teardrops slowly fall from my eyes as I look up at the sky...Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever. and It sucks to be alone...even though there are people all around you it doesn't seem to make a difference
I wanna get lost from my life sometimes, sit on the side and watch the world go by... Have you ever lived my life, have you ever spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't, then tell me why you judge me like you do.
Every morning i get up and try to put on a fake smile...but what if one morning i didn't....couldn't? Would anyone notice?
I'm not saying I have nothing. I'm not saying I'm gone completely. It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle. I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right? Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years. But for now, just for now, it hurts and nothing has helped so far.
