Only God...

Only God can judge us
All those who judge our lives
You don't know us
So back off and stay away
Cos Only God judge us

I've been blind thinking I could trust people
Though the fact of the matter is this
Been stabbed in back to many times
I couldn't trust my own friends
Now what kind of message does that send
A friend is someone who you alone can depend
No matter what the circumstance
But you see some friends are like plants
Over time nurture them right
And they will last forever and a night
Sadly most plants dwindle and wilt
To be casted off into the silt
Fading timelessly away
Amongst this cruel world's shades
Of the blackest black and the greyest grey
Some friendships can never be replanted
The hurt and the pain of those broken friendships
Never ever goes away
Until their dying day

What about the little things in life
We've all got those
A photograph, a necklace locket
A letter saying that special someone is getting better
These are the memories that you must treasure
Giving you even the most simplest of pleasures
A laugh, a cry, a smile, sharing a tear
Whilst saying your last goodbye

As for my life so far
I've been blind for a long time
Trying to keep my past behind me
I haven't got no future so that's why I'm asking
Is it a crime to wish for what should be mine?
I need to take a second and rewind
Everybody's dying for a lost cause nowadays
So what's the point in trying
I've been trapped since birth
Careful yet in my poems outspoken
I must be so bless...sorry cursed
Cos I keep having visions of me in a hearse
Really who should I fear?
As far as I can see
Mankind is doing all the killing here

I don't want to lie, I want to get over to the other side
The pain and misery makes me want to die
What the hell am I living for?
Everybody's leaving, their knocking on heaven's door
Memories of friends dying when they are in desperate need
Of some good fortune and hope
Everybody grieves, but still nobody sees
Regroup your thoughts and don't get caught up in the mix
Cause the devil is full of dirty tricks
Only God can judge you

Only God can judge
That's right I'm telling the truth
Only God
Only God can judge me
Only God can judge you
Only God can judge us
Only God can judge us now

Family and friends are around me
screaming at me don't be stupid, you can make it
How can I when my mind is full of scars
I can't breathe, I belong with the stars
Cos every time I try and breathe, they're all killing me
I'm dreaming nightmares, yeah suicidal fantasies
I subconsciously wake strangling
Dangling from cotton sheets
I dare not think too much
Already I'm so out of touch and as such
It hurts, to reminisce, how did it come to this?
Let me go now I will not be missed
all this pain I feel is not fair
Even I got to cry despite your evil glares
Try to remember, but it hurts
I'm walking around as the rain is hitting the dirt
should I die like a man then live like a coward?
This world of ours is not heaven, freedom
is what we demand as we dream in a petrified state
Our only fate is a life full of hate
And screw peace, peace isn't the release
Only God can judge us

Only God can judge
That's right I'm telling the truth
Only God
Only God can judge me
Only God can judge you
Only God can judge us
Only God can judge us now

Surprised nobody's killed me yet
Must be feeling stronger
But I don't know why people should tell me
How to live my failure of a life
Let me choose how to live
And let me choose when to die

When your friends are down that's when you got to be around
Pick yourself up your purpose in life is yet to be found
People are going to be jealous telling lies about you
But read between the lines you can see past their transparent disguise

Apparently you know everything about my life
You don't know nothing about me
Be a man and ask me
Then I'll tell you my side of the story
Cos to be honest not you, not me, not anybody else
Only God can judge me

Only God can judge
That's right I'm telling the truth
Only God
Only God can judge me
Only God can judge you
Only God can judge us
Only God can judge us now

The only fear I've got when I die
is coming back to this cruel world reincarnated
I've said my peace
That's it for now I'm out

Only God can judge
That's right I'm telling the truth
Only God
Only God can judge me
Only God can judge you
Only God can judge us
Only God can judge me now

By Jay Basey © 2010