As Difficult as it sounds - In my bed the demons play

by TheDarkCloudBehindthePoet   Dec 15, 2011


Waking up at night I fight to try and see the light,

Darkness surrounds my bed whispering in my ear saying I wish you were dead,

Do I feel the same way or do I really want to stay,

My razor blade flashes in my mind keeping me strapped to my bed in a bind,

I've gotten stronger since the last time I cut,

But I always find myself in some kind of rut,

Looking at my past scares I see what this will do to me,

Is it wrong or is it right? Or is it meant to be?

I try to fight off the demons of my past but to no avail,

They always do the same things that cause me to fail,

Torturing my mind, saying no one loves me,

Feeding off the anger of my past hurting me greatly,

Grabbing my blade I look at it in total awe,

Forgetting how it once almost killed me breaking my only law,

A law to live, a law to always do what's right,

But in my mind I can barely put up a fight,

I slash my leg to my calf and then my arm to elbow,

Cutting myself a few more times in a row,

I hate myself I have nothing left,

But it is better than killing myself,

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  • 4 years ago

    by Blood of a Lion

    Just a side note:

    Darkness surronds my bed whispering in my ear saying I wish you were dead,

    I'm sure you caught this already just haven't had the time to go back and edit. Surrounds.
    Alright enough of being a Nazi!
    You definitely have a rhyming way to your poems and it makes them enjoyable.

    Suicide poems, or self-hurt poems are always hard to comment on, for me atleast.
    Always gotta remember to keep your head up.
    Band-aids are better than razors in my experience.
    -------
    I try to fight off the demons of my past but to no avail,

    They always do the same things that cause me to fail,

    Torturing my mind, saying no one loves me,
    ^^^ these three lines make it for me atleast.

    Good job but smile :) 5/5

    • 4 years ago

      by TheDarkCloudBehindthePoet

      Thank you Blood of a Lion. Band aid are better than razor blades my friend. Trying to keep my head above water. I'm glad you like my poem. Ill try to make them better and take advice. Thank you BoL :)

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