Given Up

The want, the urge, the despiration,
To have a love, an inspiration,
An inspiration to always be happy,
And not to be down, sad, or feel crappy.

I hate this feeling, all this depression,
To never be loved, and wanting affection,
This is my life, boring and lonely,
Wanting a love, a one and only.

See, my life sucks, It always will,
I will never find love, this feeling will kill,
But I cant help it, I always try,
And give up, admit defeat, then I cry.

I am done trying, yes this is done,
Looking for love, then down the barrel of a gun,
I wont look for love, I'll let it find me,
Because then I'll know, It will be meant to be.