Why I do it

by Kelwin lost in thought   Feb 1, 2013


Why I do it
is what you ask
you ask why I would ever cut
you ask why I want to kill myself
if you want to know why then I'll tell you
it's cause of my past
I guess being raped does that to you
but that is not why
that I was able to live with
but the real reason I do it
that answer is simple
it's cause of you
you
I cut cause of you
you are the ones putting the knife in my hand
putting the blade to my skin
all the times you said I am nothing
that I was a mistake
you telling me I should just kill myself
you are the reason I am who I am
the cutter I am
did you ever ask what was wrong
did you ever ask how I felt
how all those names made me feel
no
all you did was call me them
and more
you make me sick
you make me want to end it all
I'm just doing what you told me to do
so now you say it's bad
that I shouldn't end my life
when it was you
who told me to do it in the first part
wow how said
when I do what you tell me to
that it makes me an outcast
an monster
if so then I am a monster
but I am what you made me
so when you read my name in the papers
or hear my name on the news
saying a boy killed himself
just know
I only did what you asked
so am I the bad guy
or are you

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  • 11 years ago

    by Miss Lonely Teacher

    I liked this one, powerful and nicely written, keep it up and keep your head up <3

  • 11 years ago

    by CathyButterflyJC

    THIS IS SO SAD, If I wans't in school right now, I would have started crying, you write so beautifully and so emotional, your heart pours completely out into your writing, making the best lines, words, and poems, FANTASTIC POEM, I'm here for ya bro! Please never give up!

  • 11 years ago

    by Natasha

    The emotion I sense in this piece is pretty strong. It's not sadness, it's anger, and yet, an accomplishment. I so love how you stayed in one category, that makes you an amazing person, Kelwin.

    And this poem is lovely. Stay strong, hun!

  • 11 years ago

    by whoami

    Omfg Kelwin u r amazing! That was the most intense poem I hve ever read...

  • 11 years ago

    by Jump from Life

    So amazing and powerful love. I loved it 5/5 <3 please stay strong.

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