My Dearest Love,
.......I find myself in a state of illness. The dizziness I sometimes feel in your presence has begun to overtake me in your absence. I fear this new dizziness is one of a medical malfunction. To say I am scared when the room spins and the Earth shakes in my head would be an understatement. It is not death I fear if death should come for I have longed for the peaceful rest it will bring, the calming of my soul and the removal of my unhappiness that plagues me.
.......What I fear most is the darkness I will suffer with the loss of your smile, the emptiness I will feel when I can no longer gaze into the deep endless pool of your eyes, the coldness that will come without the touch of your hand, the endless thirst I will suffer without the touch of your moist lips, the quiet I will suffer from the loss of your laughter. But my greatest fear is that my eyes will never again gaze on your beauty and that my anxiousness to see you will forever travel in time never again to be calmed by your presence.
.......Dying will not only take away all the miseries of my life but also the only joy I have ever found............You!
