Nothing

Fatfatfat.
Nonono.
Wiggling,
Shaking,
Squirming,

My heart
it's gone weak
and empty
Is is worth it
Skinny?

Slish,
Slash,
Scream.
Why
Do I do this

Fatfatfat.
Yesyesyes.
Eateateat.
Purgepurgepurge.
This will make people want me.

'Ice cream goes to your thighs'
'I know how much you can eat'
'Maybe if you actually did something,
You wouldn't have to lose weight'
Whywhywhy?

Starve.Cut.
Scream.Cry.
Binge.Purge.
Scream. Cry.
Why can't you understand?

"Why were you crying?'
"Steph? What's wrong"
It doesn't matter.
Nothing, nothing.
I wish I were nothing.

Thinthinthin.
Why can't I be her?
Mememe.
I will never be enough.
Why is this so important?

Stretch marks.
Large thighs.
This disease may kill me.
The funny thing?
I'm convinced it's worth it.