Friends?

I lay in the bed of a truck
Staring up at the stars shining bright above
It makes me sad when I think
Of what I did to lose your love

We had been drifting apart
You paid more attention to others
I'd had plenty of broken hearts before
And couldn't stand to have another

So before you had the chance to break me
I did something to make sure you couldn't
I regret it now, but at that time
I wasn't thinking of how I shouldn't

The knife felt cool against my throat
The familiar touch was like coming home
I knew you would be happy to live without me
So I slit my skin and fell into the unknown

Unfortunately a neighbor saved me
He found me in a puddle of blood, clutching a note
You would've read how empty I felt
I thought of no one but you as it was wrote

It's all in the past now
And I'm ready to move on
Hopefully you'll see the new me
And we can be the friends we were all along