I'm not sure you know I no longer visit you for it was just that one time I stood above you with a grave in my heart to remind me of my deepest loss. A gravel road brought me to you that day as the sun drenched my skin with such paradox, I never knew of sunshine bringing death. Yet I find comfort knowing I'm there in spirit, for the solar rose that faintly keeps you company is one of the greatest gifts I could have ever given. It's a token of my heart, one I know that will live on beside you and always help us both remember for I miss you like crazy.
There was such remembrance and nostalgia expressed in this piece Temps, and you wrote it with depth. It was almost contemplative in a way...how you are still dealing with the time spent after losing someone, that reminder that always seems to be present, as well as that innocence we may show towards death. I love how you posed that thought of sunshine bringing death- it is paradoxical and I know we can ask why, why on a day like today? It seems like you're anything but ready to move on and accept when there is a burial that soon.
Such peaceful words near the end. I liked the gift of the solar rose, and how you mentioned that! That's very sweet and I think having a tangible reminder is often what we need...I know I have a baseball cap from my grandpa when there was an auction for his house items, I wasn't sure what would remind me most, but he always wore a baseball cap and I wanted to do that too.
An emotional, touching poem. Really like how you didn't separate into stanzas or anything, just put in this short paragraph.....glad you wrote this because it's definitely hard when those memories come up and your heart aches from missing them. It's wonderful they were a part of your life though, how beautiful :]
5 years ago
Poignant piece translated so well into words. I feel this way from time to time about people I've lost. There's always that feeling of regret when you don't or can't visit them anymore. Reminded me of a line from Wakefield's poem: "cemeteries are just the earth's way of not letting go." or something along those lines. I loved the phrases: "grave in my heart" -- a refreshing way to symbolize grief. And it also runs along side how some say "something dies inside" of someone when they lose someone significant to them whether it be happiness that they lose; joy, faith, hope etc. And the phrase, "I never knew of sunshine
bringing death." as it shows how cemeteries (which are commonly associated with death) seem so full of life when beneath the earth lay something more and the fact that people mourn/grieve here. Looking at it differently though, they are laid there to rest in peace. To the recently mourning, it might seem more of an irony, I guess.
And the "token" -- we do leave things for them - flowers, candles, some leave food and cards - as though they were still alive. And in a way, we are keeping them (their memories) alive. And it makes grief all the more easier to carry as a burden, believing that there's a part of us with them. Or maybe, it's a part of them that's with us.
5 years ago
This is very sad. Its always bad to lose someone you love but you always have good memories. Excellent write. 5/5